you gave this love a meaning.

“Is you gaveLOVE a meaning.”

Thursday, May 19, 2011 || 4:50 AM

okay , i am gonna blog instead of spamming my wallpost & new feeds !

i really really feel very pekcek , for dont know why for th whole days ! REALLY !

i really dont understand why is it always like that i dont understand ! D:

okay , me & dear have been together for 116days !

conflict , quarrells keep coming on idk why ! perharps like what he say , my attidue , my temper ,my xmm or whatever idk !

plus he also got temper attidue ! not only me !

i kept going his way , listen to him . do what he wants me to do . but there's limits to everything !

i use to trust him FULLY & is yes FULLY !

but after one lie to another lie to another . i think my trust for him is like gonna be empty !

i had neverdo anything that betray him , whats wondering me in my mind . is why he kept lie-ing ! REALLY . yes , i go his way everytime everyway. how he treat me , i also let him be it . perharps he needs time to forget his first love ! but after weeks or 1 month things still th same .

after one big quarrell we had ,i already keep thinking i have to protect myself & i should not be treated this way. No matter what, i still love him so deeply . but i dont know why.

he said his friends said me xmm , thinking like kid . but this is what i am , i am born to be like this . he wanted me to change , but he doesnt give me faces in front of his friends . also say me .

i also diamdiam without saying back . i dint say back cause i dont wish to quarrell or throw your face ! but you never think of me ~ i feel like a maid than a girlfriends of yours, really ! i SWEAR !

ask me do this do that , even is a little things that u should not be helping you. cause i help is cause i dont wish to have conflict over small matter. no matter what i am always in th wrong , you never been a wrong guy . you are always a right guy. whenever you said something hurt me , i never fail to cry . i kept thinking you dont even love me , if you love me you wont have treated me this way.whatever you said , i haveveen always said you dont love me .

you always say i dont love you . but i love you more than you can do it .

i do every little things , save everything i could just for your book out !

today , had conflict . you said we need time to think .

but in th first place i already said i'm feeling very pekcek . you said okok .

but you seems dont bother . say i dont help this help that ! i did help , end up i'm also getting th blame like for fuck ! you keep asking question you know whats th answer!

why cant you be a little patience ? NVM LAH , i really dont know what i should do or say. think what you want say what you want . i already know what you want long ago ! i know , i lknow you long waiting to say this . so nvm , whats your answer i will accept it . i have never been a good girlfriend . your first love is always th best !

do you know boys anger , whatever they say during angry is what they meant it ? (:

all your words keep running through my mind , really . your words is way to true it's hard for me to believe you're lie-ing for this .

to you i'm always a dog , xmm , hooker , bitch , nothing else . like a maid but nothing else !

i feel so hurt , yes i do ! i really feel like CUTTING MY HAND REALLY !

Tuesday, April 5, 2011 || 5:39 AM

shall update myself soon alright <3 i'm lazy plus i have nothing events up now ! hun's in camp now , booking out only on friday than book in on sunday. less time with him , but gotta spend time with him ! <3 && i have start my driving lesson (: it was alright . all i must now is pass my btt & i can start my driving on road ! :D but gotta pass well ! <3 told hun about it . happy of what i have now . my aims is to pass driving & o level. suffer now enjoy later on <3 goodbye. do tag often !

Sunday, April 3, 2011 || 2:34 AM

it's sunday ! means hun's book in today ! OMG ! gonna miss him much !D: woke up at 11am today , preapre with hun ! & decided to head to clementi for koi ! (Y) so hun called jiahao , if he wanted to go with us. so we headed down to clementi first ! :D line up for koi , than headed for our chicken rice while wiating for jiahao . than headed to imm as i told hun it's bored at clementi mall ! :x so hun agreed ! i was happy & headed to imm. went to daiso ofcause ! (Y) hehhh happygirl! wanted to buy tibits buthun keep say no . cause yesterday mummy told hun i keep sick. than hun also scold me keep sick ! LOL! than bought 2photo fame to design hun's room ! :D hehh. bought things & both of th guys decided to cab home ! before that head to yew tee to print photo for our photo fame ! :D waited , while hun went to buy stuff for his camp things ! :D headed to hun's house after that. had quarrell with hun , i went home alone . so things wasnt fine till in th night he called & stuff went better for us. i hope no more quarrell :D so had my beauty sleep after hun went to sleep ! :D hehh !