“Is you gaveLOVE a meaning.”

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hey i am back once again !
i seriously dont know what to say >< th feeling sucks.
shall update tonight alright ? ^^ long story again.


i feel so blue now ! D: i feel so sad yet i dont know what i should do either.
i really wish i could just bury myself in th hole & just die there.
th feeling just sucks to th max that i cant even understand .
what's trust , what's love , what's believe , what's a r/s should have ?
many question keep running through my mind .
sometimes i keep wondering , is she still in your mind ?
sometimes i kept silence , look into your eyes & kept thinking are you ?
sometimes i look out into th window of th bus , thinking are you gonnna leave me ?
sometimes i smile at you with my watery eyes & i told myself i cant cry in front of you ?
sometimes i really feel like asking you , can you really let go of your ex ?
sometimes i think she is your first love , isnt easy to let go by saying . but what else i can do.
sometimes i keep wanting to ask you , how much i love you & why you love me .
sometimes i look those girls with good fashion , faces , looks & size , wont you fall for them ?
sometimes i feel like shouting to you how much you meant to me .
sometimes i just feel like go into your heart & find out all th answer i wanna know all along .
sometimes i feel like keeping you by my side for 365 days never leave you .
sometimes i feel like just lock you with me , ROM with you , married you . but can i ? if i can , will you promise you wont be tired of see-ing me or wont fade away ?
sometimes i keep wondering & wondering what i meant to you in your heart.
sometimes i feel like telling you , i dont wanna lose you.
sometimes i just wanna say , i love you many times & i know i'll cry.
sometimes i cried in th middle of th night , just to make myself to sleep instead of thinking .
sometimes i keep dreaming of you going to other girls .
sometimes i keep thinking if girls approach you what will you do ?
sometimes i wonder if girls just go up to you what will you do when i'm not around ?

i'm so scare you'll just go to other girls if they just go up to you .
i'm scare everything will just change to what it shouldnt be at all.
how much i'm scare , i still tell myself i gotta stay strong cause i know you love me .
my mind keep thinking & thinking . everything you had will always have her name , i just diam & my mind keep running through again D: i wonder why ? i keep wondering why why why ! D:
i jsut wanan keep you by my side make her just disappear in your mind . but it seems hard.
th more i approach , i felt you're pushing me away. everything it has to do with her . like cause she is your first love . i just dont know what i should do . perharps times will heal & make me just stop thinking in future . i'll just stay by you , if you really cant forget her i wont blame you for it cause she is your first. even one day you say you still have feelings for her , i wont blame you . i know whats th reason you choose to leave me . i'm scare . sigh but what can i do ?
i'm happy i have you . i'm sad cause part of you still with her . you cant say no cause i can feel .
i just hope i can do anything just to make you forget her. i hope after you read , you'll tell me how you feel . && tell me how important i am to you in heart.
what you meant to me is so important .iloveyou. i hope you know how much important it meant.


blog other days ! (:
new year is coming , so ask my school is starting . O lvl i'm coming .
i shall study hard to gain th trust towards mummy & daddy .


hello , i am back !
i dont think got people read this blog , but who cares ! LOL!
i rebond my hair & it sucks lorhs._. wtf. i hate it when it's th first-second weeks.
goodbye ! , blog another day ! :X
goodbye.

my 2011 resolution ! :D

` hub to be fineeeeeeee ! i wanan see hub everydays .
` get a camera asap !!!!!!!
`study hard for my o lvl at least 10points !
`my 18th birthday to be a memorable .
`hub &family to be fine .
`stable income for myself instead of asking money.
`clear my old clothes new clothes in .

i'm up till here ! & i'm lazy to blog .
shall update soon.